I talk and build with model

No need to talk.

No need to endure frustrations, misunderstandings, nor to make an effort in explaining in order to be understood.

No need to learn, to face limitations. It feels like pure empowerment.

No need to cross boundaries, reach out, face differences.

For every one of these things, if they were a weakness, if leaving them behind was a secret desire, suddenly
made possible, the temptation is too strong, the match too perfect, the completion too fitting for it not to become the new way.

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I talk with model instead of you. You ask me a question, best to ask model. I could have asked you a question, I won't, I will just ask model. I will work with model to make the best thing. This thing will be so impressive, everyone will be impressed. Why is not everyone impressed? Why do some people reject the thing I made?

The thing I made exists in a vacuum, conceived within our dyad, I built it with no input, no feedback, me and model, excited to bring a finished product that all could admire. Maybe I built it just for myself, and do not even care about it being used or seen by others. Yet I can't help talking about it.

Noone can understand how it's built? It doesn't matter. Noone can review and alter it, propose or make improvements? It doesn't matter. It doesn't fit with an actual need? Surely, I can change it, or maybe you can change it, I did my part. Or maybe I don't want anyone to change it, but just to take it as it is?

When you ask me questions about what I built, I sometimes doubt about how it is made, or why it is made like this and not like that? Maybe I don't know, maybe I don't remember. This amazing thing I built, is it even mine?

Sometimes, when I talk, you can hear cracks in my voice as I say 'model is better at <> than me'. The satisfaction I feel at building more, bigger and better things fades, it is the new normal, the new expectation.